How are we not supposed to fear food? Society tells us that to be beautiful is to be thin. I am happy to say that we are finally moving away from that “ideal” (ughhh) body image.
I battled a rather severe eating disorder from early high school to, oof, five-ish years ago. I was so disconnected from my body that it didn’t matter what went in, it had to come out. I treated my body like an asshole. I hated it. Everything about it. But at that time, I also hated myself.
I found yoga. And by no means am I saying you must do yoga to heal, but for me, yoga was the first time I ever was able to get out of my head and step into my body. It was crazy. I have always done some sort of movement. I love to move. My body craves it.
But yoga was different. I wasn’t able to be in my head and hate my body. And finally, I started to notice my body. What it does for me, how it feels when I eat, and what happens to it after I eat certain foods. It was all so strange.
That’s when I started to listen. To stop treating my body like an enemy and, instead, to accept it—knowing that I could still change it if I wanted. I picked up on how certain foods made me feel, mentally, physically, and emotionally. That was the kicker! When the three were in alignment, that’s when I knew I’d found foods I could continue with. I was able to get away from the labeling of foods as “good” or “bad.” There is no good food or bad food. I mean, highly processed Frankenfoods are bad, but that’s a topic for another day. The only way to view food is how it makes you feel. Mentally, emotionally, and physically.
I’ve talked about this before, but I was able to step away from the all-or-nothing thinking when it came to food. Just because I ate one “bad” food didn’t mean I fucked up, everything was ruined, and I should just eat ALL of the things. Think of it this way: When you read a few chapters of a book and set it down, you aren’t a failure for not finishing it, right? There is no guilt. Why do we guilt ourselves over food? Just because you read one chapter does not mean you have to read the entire novel.
The all-or-nothing, good-vs-bad is what you need to overcome. When you stop resisting and saying no to what you desire, you’ll you will be amazed at how little of it you actually want.